Crazy Day

So yesterday was definitely one of those days I should have spent more time just crying out to God. It seemed as if every five minutes my two year old was literally pushing me to my limits. Unfortunately, I gave in to my flesh and pretty much lost my temper several times throughout the day. There was even at one point I thought I just needed to get away from her before I really went crazy. I can't believe I'm actually putting that out there but it's the truth and I want this blog to be an encouragement to other young moms if they read it. Don't let anybody fool you because there are absolutely days like this. I feel like the worst mom on days like this. I often just want to sit and cry. I wonder if when my daughter gets older is that all she is going to remember? Her days filled with discipline and tears? And this pretty much lasted all the way up until bedtime. But at the end of the day she is still willing to hug and kiss me good night and I know that she knows I love her.
Yesterday has made me realize I need to try some new directions. Because I honestly gave away so many spankings yesterday it was unreal. My husband thinks I should break out the spanking spoon but I think for now we are going to go back to time out. Since she's two this usually consisits of me putting her in the bed. We will see how this goes.
My one year old has been taking his first steps for several days now! I love it but it also bugs me...lol. When my daughter started walking we were able to record her first steps on video that night. But he isn't really walking where I can try and catch him on video yet. He will stand up and then take a few steps sometimes before he starts crawling again. But I really should get a video of him crawling before it's too late because it's hilarious. He is doing this bear walk thing with his butt up in the air.
I'm hoping and praying for a better day today. I have been in so much pain with my back it's almost to the point where I fear doing anything. It's becoming a strain just to pick my children up and this is something I of course have to do several times a day and I also want to be able to pick them up.
I also head back to the doctor today where I am having check-ups every two weeks. Makes me a little nervous because it's a reminder that it is getting closer and closer and I honestly don't think I'm ready. But I am ready for the day!

New

I decided to start a new blog. I'm not really sure how I will divide the two up but this one is mainly for my records. I want to use it to record my life as a mother of young children and expecting more children. I don't know what our future holds in store for us, but if our past is any indication it's going to be a busy journey. I will try to keep it honest and real. That probably means I will do lots of complaining. I hate to say that but for now that's where I am at in this walk. It is not something I am at all pleased with and am seeking counsel on dealing with. So hopefully as I record you will see a difference in the attitudes of the previous posts.

So lets start with today......
I have a two year old, a one year old and I am currently 31 pregnants. Right when I found out I was pregnant this time I had to start seeing a chiropractor every week. I have had a lot of problems with my sciata nerve and that has caused even more problems. This has had the worst effect on my every day living. I can only do so much in a day so as not to get in completely bad shape. But for now I won't dwell too much on that. Just know that it has been hurting a lot and has gotten worse over the last two weeks.

So today was so supossed to have been the start of something new. I have hired someone to come in once a week to help me clean. We were originally going to start today but then she had something she needed to do and I had been hurting all weekend and had not gotten prepared like I wanted to before she came. So that has been put off until tomorrow.

Now for months and months my daughter has not been sleeping through the night. I'm not sure when it started but once it did it didn't stop. Well, she finally started sleeping through the night again a few weeks ago and the very same night she did my son started waking up during the night. Needless to say this has been a frustrating and exhausting process. I have tried all sorts of things but so far nothing has really worked. So last night I woke up about 3:30 to use the bathroom. When I wake up it takes me forever to go back to sleep. So thirty minutes later I am still awake and my son wakes up. He was still obviously sleepy and I ended up putting him in the bed with me. Well, he tossed and turned and talked for a good hour before he finally fell back asleep. I woke up this morning tired and not feeling well.
I did pretty much nothing all morning to be honest. I moved my appointment with the chiropractor up from tomorrow to today so I went to that around 3:45. My husband was planning on working for the rest of the evening so I ended up going over to my sisters and spending some time with her for a couple of hours. I then ran to Walmart to grab something I had forgotten off of my list and then came home.
So today was a pretty uneventful day as far as suceeding in getting things done around the home. I'm hoping to get up early to get a start on getting some cleaning done before my help arrives. I am too embarassed for anyone to see it the way it is and my plans for this week is for us to take everything out of my bedroom and put in our living room. We are in the process of trying to switch bedrooms. So wish me luck.