Crazy Day

So yesterday was definitely one of those days I should have spent more time just crying out to God. It seemed as if every five minutes my two year old was literally pushing me to my limits. Unfortunately, I gave in to my flesh and pretty much lost my temper several times throughout the day. There was even at one point I thought I just needed to get away from her before I really went crazy. I can't believe I'm actually putting that out there but it's the truth and I want this blog to be an encouragement to other young moms if they read it. Don't let anybody fool you because there are absolutely days like this. I feel like the worst mom on days like this. I often just want to sit and cry. I wonder if when my daughter gets older is that all she is going to remember? Her days filled with discipline and tears? And this pretty much lasted all the way up until bedtime. But at the end of the day she is still willing to hug and kiss me good night and I know that she knows I love her.
Yesterday has made me realize I need to try some new directions. Because I honestly gave away so many spankings yesterday it was unreal. My husband thinks I should break out the spanking spoon but I think for now we are going to go back to time out. Since she's two this usually consisits of me putting her in the bed. We will see how this goes.
My one year old has been taking his first steps for several days now! I love it but it also bugs me...lol. When my daughter started walking we were able to record her first steps on video that night. But he isn't really walking where I can try and catch him on video yet. He will stand up and then take a few steps sometimes before he starts crawling again. But I really should get a video of him crawling before it's too late because it's hilarious. He is doing this bear walk thing with his butt up in the air.
I'm hoping and praying for a better day today. I have been in so much pain with my back it's almost to the point where I fear doing anything. It's becoming a strain just to pick my children up and this is something I of course have to do several times a day and I also want to be able to pick them up.
I also head back to the doctor today where I am having check-ups every two weeks. Makes me a little nervous because it's a reminder that it is getting closer and closer and I honestly don't think I'm ready. But I am ready for the day!